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Name: Thomas (Tom)
Location: Pennsylvania, United States
Birthday: 10/29/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Shopping, Hanging With Friends, Drawing, Designing Graphics, Photography, Digital Video, Browsing The Internet, Chatting, Working (It's Actually Kinda Fun!), Etc.!
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
5/4/2004
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| Wow! I haven't written in this thing since august! Jesus! Anyway a lot has happened since then. *sigh* I am at loss for words right now so im gonna make this short. | | |
| Sometimes at night when i go to sleep
I hold my pillow tight,
Thinking of you 'til it hurts
But in my mind, i know you're mine
And somewhere you're thinking of me too
I miss you, thinking of you
You're always on my mind
You're always on my mind, (day and night) day and night
When i think of you, everything feels so right
Well i often think of the happy times we spent together
And i just can't wait to tell you that i love you
Time keeps passing by, (you're not here) you're not here
I feel so all alone when i don't have you near
But i often think of the happy times we spent together
And i just can't wait (just can't wait) to tell you that i love you
I'm missing my baby, missing my baby (missing my baby)
I gotta hold you tight, and never let you out of my sight
Missing my baby, (missing my baby) missing my baby (i miss you)
I gotta feel your heart beat (your heart beat) next to mine
Gotta feel it (feel it)
Time keeps passing by, (time keeps passing by) you're not here
I feel so all alone when i don't have you near (thinking of you)
But i often think of the happy times we spent together
And i just can't wait to tell you that i love you
I'm missing my baby, missing my baby (missing my baby)
I gotta hold you tight, and never let you out of my sight
Missing my baby, missing my baby (i miss you)
I gotta feel your heart beat (your heart beat) next to mine
Thinking of you, is all i do,
It's the next best thing
To being with you and baby - hey
Gotta have you (have you), gotta hold you (hold you)
Got to have your lovin' (i gotta have you)
And tell you that i love you
And i really miss you (i miss you)
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| I was blind
But now I see
And you know what
Somebody's gonna do
What you did to me
You took my heart
You threw it against the wall,
And I sat here alone
Starin' at the phone
But you dont call
Who do you think you're foolin'
Love ain't a game to be played
My heart is empty
Like the promises you made
But now i'm gettin' stronger
And I don't need you any longer
It'll take time
Baby wait and see
Somebody's gonna do what you did to me
It'll take time
Baby wait and see
Somebody's gonna do what you did to me
You think you're smart
Playin' me all this time
But the game that you played
In the bed that we laid
Will haunt you in sweet time
Do you tell him all your stories
Do you tell him all your lies
Just like you told me
Right before you said good-bye
But now i'm getting stronger
And I don't need you any longer
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| *Flashback*
April 26th, 2004...I was on my way home from school, driving, it was
cold and wet outside, I lost control of my vehicle on a sharp curve,
and slammed head on into a telephone pole, my head smashed against the
windshield, my car was totaled, I lost my breath for a brief
while, and my head was hurting really bad along with my wrist...I never
thought this would happen to me...everything then went down hill from
there, I was rushed to the hospital, examined, and went home with a
splint on. I just really wish that I would have died in the car
wreck; I would have if I wouldn’t have given myself resistance.
Now my life is a mess, every single part, why did this happen to me?
What did I do to deserve this? Why could have god took me that cold
rainy day, instead of leaving me on this earth to suffer, I mean I know
I had it lucky, and people have it a lot worse than me, but I really
wish I died, I don’t have my own car anymore I cant get out, I am
trapped inside my house, getting suicidal and upset, I have no one in
my life who cares, I need someone to be there for me...I met this one
someone on gay.com though and I feel horrible, because I think he
thinks I’m ignoring him by not talking that much, sometimes I just want
to be quiet and not say anything...I hope he doesn't hate me...because
I like him, he is very sweet and caring, I haven't met someone like
that in a long time...I just feel that I don't want to hurt any body...
I just wish I was dead. This day was not very pleasant what-so-ever. I
snapped at my friend Courtney told her to leave me alone and back the
fuck off, and me and my mom got in a fist fight, she threw the first
punch, and hit me on the back, I didn’t punch, I just pushed her out of
my room. She took that as a reason to start hitting me more and jumping
on top of me, I started bawling after it happened and during. I
couldn't breathe I was hyper-ventilating, I felt like I was gonna lose
myself in the arms of agony. She hit me really hard and I banged my
head against the wall...I just really feel she doesn't want me around,
and if she does she wants me to pay for all of the utilities/bills she
should be paying for...I helped her out before, I shouldn’t do it again
and I wont... Sometimes I wish that something terrible would happen to
me to get me out of here, maybe that is the main reason I want to die,
to get away from it all, I have no where to go...Life is so full of
memories I can’t let go of. That is mainly my problem. I just wish I
would die and be free from this life I am living... | | |
| When I'm Gone
Would you take good care of everything
Will you keep wearing your wedding ring when I'm gone
And when I'm gone, will you take down all the photographs
Where we spent our warm and tender laughs
When i'm gone
Will you miss me
in the night
Will your arms reach out to hold me tight
Will your keep me in your dreams?
in your heart?
in your life?
Sometimes I wanna run to you
Like lovers do
When love is new
just for a moment be close to you
pretending i'm still holding you.
And even when I'm far away
in dreams we'll stay
and someday
after we've all chased our fantasies
love will bring you back to me
When i'm gone
I'll be thinking 'bout you constantly
'cause you're locked inside my memory
from now on
And I know
that we said we needed time apart
Would your love keep pulling at my heart
but it's strong
Will you miss me
in the night
will your arms reach out to hold me tight
Will your keep me in your dreams?
in your heart?
in your life?
Sometimes I wanna run to you
Like lovers do
When love is new
just for a moment be close to you
pretending i'm still holding you.
And even when I'm far away
in dreams we'll stay
and someday
after we've all chased our fantasies
love will bring you back to me | | |
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